Breathing Behind The Doctors Mask

Jul. 6th, 2009 @ 05:52 pm my life. blah and blah.

I think people should be rewarded for their actions.

I walked EVERY WHERE last year. So I should get a car for free.

If you have sex with 50 people in ten months you should expect a kid.

If you lie all the time you should expect false emotions in return.

If you give hugs you should get kisses.

I FINALLY found a new blogging site. I love live journal but I lost all my friends on it. Which depresses me.

It's not the site I dreamt about but it should be fun. I will juggle this site still. I'm able. I'm ready to write again. Ready to attempt to politically rebellious. Ready to complain about flaunting the murder of a murderer. That's where i'm not sure the punishment should match the crime. I wrote a paper on it once A Life For A Life?. It dealt with capital punishment. I think there is some thing wrong with some one if they are able to kill people but won't take the gun and point at their own face or take the knife and slit their wrists. I can't imagine some one living after that.

Anyways I finished A New Moon. My mom suggested I take a break from the twilight series so I'm reading AT First Sight which is a Nicholas Sparks novel. So far so good. I'm going to try to finish it in a week. For one to see if I can. For two so I can get on with the third Twilight book (Eclipse) and for three to increase my reading skills. It's be amazing to eventually read all the Nicholas Sparks novels I can. I've read two. Started two other ones and now this one. The only author I've read every book (except one that I know of) is Ellen Wittlinger. :-D IT's an accomplishment for sure!

Other than that I've increased my work out routine. I read in a magazine the biggest muscle in your body is the gluteus maxemis (spell check doesn't work :-/)  Also if you work out this muscle it helps to make you run faster, jump higher, and is a good base for other exercises. Since I don't have dumb bells I'm currently using canned foods but Hey it still works. So thats a two part exercise. Total of 40 sets. Plus my 20 push-ups and 15 sit-ups. With the occasional walk or rollerblade two-four times a week. I eventually want to go running but I need running shoes first.

Too bad these damn anti-anxiety pills are making me fat!! It's sick. I've always struggled to maintain a healthy figure. Vanity or not it makes me feel better when I'm exercised. On top of the weight gain it's made me artistically numb. I made one art project and that was because I was drugged up on vicodin after getting my teeth removed. I found an old notebook from last summer with poems and it made me depressed. I literally can't write how I used to. I know being sober is a son of bitch for some writers but hell.

Finally ANOTHER job offer and Beaumont. I'm going to really give it my all. If I don't get it then on to Subway and any where else. I know they still have me on file if any other jobs come up but this one is environmental and frankly cleaning is one thing I excel at. We'll see what happens. All I know is I'm literally going insane with not working. My dad mentioned some thing about $200 and I realized I haven't made that much money since 2007. Yeah nearly two years of nickle and diming. Which I've some how managed to stay a smoker occasional drinker and a pot head. Among other misc. drug user. How ever since my wisdoms getting out I've quit every thing including coffee. One cigarette and one beer but that's it. I did cheat a few times by getting high in my dreams but hey what can ya do?  lol.

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